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A Delicate Few...  I really just dont know what to say right now. This is absolutely unreal. I pretty much had the best day possible before leaving. Breakfast with Julie downtown along with a nice walk in Orlando's glorious downtown little area. Then I spent time with Noah. Then i went to starbucks with dave and jessie to say goodbye to bronwyn. Annie Ibby and Joel then came over to say goodbye. Dinner with mom and julia. Then ricky dave jessie and megan came over. And then Carina and Julie. So i pretty much couldnt ask for a better final day in winter park. And i did SO well with not crying infront of anyone. i remained numb (eh, had some emotional issues seeing joel off, but that doesnt count) and even when carina julie and i couldnt let go of each other in my driveway i STILL didnt cry. and i was positive jessie megan and dave would do me in, but still, no tears. SO after everyone leaves I went upstairs to add some stuff to my many suitcases. I looked around and realized that no one else was coming to say goodbye. ohhhhh and then the crying started. I had to run downstairs to my mom cause it was pretty damn pathetic. Julia just came in and threw me a paper rolled up and tied with twine. Oh god, I'm going to lose it. There is just no question about it. It's 1 and im waking up in 5 hours, but I just feel as if there are so many things I still need to do..... As of tomorrow I'm entering this whole new world. I just want everyone who I'm leaving behind or watching go somewhere else to know, that I will love them just as much as I always have even when I am away. I owe you all the world for making me so incredibly happy and giving me such special memories. Everyone, please leave me messages on my live journal, call my cell, email me, everything! i probably wont be updating for a few days..... Just remember, I will always love you! "Say goodnight not good-bye You will never leave my heart behind Like the path of a star I'll be anywhere you are In the spark that lies beneath the coals In the secret place inside your soul Keep my light in your eyes Say goodnight not good-bye Don't you fear when you dream Waking up is never what it seems Like a jewel buried deep Like a promise meant to keep You are everything you want to be So just let your heart reach out to me I'll be right by your side Say goodnight not good-bye You are everything you want to be So just let your heart reach out to me Keep my light in your eyes Say goodnight not good-bye" chantal kreviazuk 57 hours.... For the past few days I have been to so many familiar, comforting places. I feel as if spending time with my friends right now is creating a sort of padding around me....so it shouldnt be too painful to jump into a completely foreign place that might have prickleys sticking out of the surface. now, logically speaking.... Thursday, Julie and I watched a Chorus Line rehearsal. There was something very satisfying about watching my friends up there with the girl i admired for years when we both performed on Trinitys stage....while we were waiting for them to get done with their notes, jules and i walked around campus. It was strange...we were the only people there...and i have to admit there was a small lump in my throat when we walked by the benches. Carina then met up with us, and we rented a movie, and the three of us snuggled up on the hamulas couch while mrs. hamula cooked us our favorite honey chicken that we have been hooked on for three years. Yesterday was my last day at O'boys....which wasn't too horribly difficult because I know I will be back in a few monthes and most everyone will still be there. Actually, I wasnt the only one who was going on break from there, so we ran around and took funny pictures and customers thought we were insane. After work Denise and Lauren came over to say goodbye....it was just as wierd as I imagined to say goodbye, see you in three monthes. I love the two of them so much, and I know it's not like we will lose touch or anything. I just stop knowing what to think about all of this... Last night Carina and I went to the best sushi place ever, Ichiban downtown. We vented pretty much the whole time, but we truly needed it. Then we suprised joel chase annie and ibby by driving down to chase's house even though we told them we werent going to. Today, out of pure stress, I bought a new shirt and skirt from bloomies. woops? Tonight was the first time I actually cried this week. The greenbergs had this amazing dinner party for us, and everything was splendid til i went up to jessie's room and saw a suitcase with sweatshirts and towels in it. And I absolutely felt something crumble inside of me. Then i went back downstairs and saw everyone and yeah i lost it again. I really am excited, I swear! I'm just scared about leaving what is so comfortable. After Jessies I ran to Dexter's for the last time. It was Amandas last night and she sent me an email today implying she thought i was already up in Va. so i had to go and suprise her. I know you probably dont know who the hell I'm talking about but it was so nice to see laura ravi john and ryan one last time....and it was so bittersweet because criag and shawns band was playing and they sang an allman bros band song for me.....and yes, for those who have followed this story, Julius was there. And he was so sweet and I felt heinous as always. Well, the time is almost here.... oh, and I'm packing way too much. I think I'm going to end up having 12 skirts with me. Earliar today I was really bummed out. Not to sound rediculously dramatic, but I was upset because of the three boys who have claimed to have loved me at one point in the past few years, not one wants to see me before I leave. I guess my feelings are kinda hurt. But college is a blank page....My book of high school experiences has closed and my afterthoughts are the book's conclusion. So why should I let that bother me? Goodnight and sweet dreams! Current music: "let that be enough" by switchfoot. "oh god its my mom calling, dont tell her I'm a whore" Aw yes. At least my last few days at home are filled with entertaining,yet utterly random comments. I have had a terribly eventful past few days. Sunday was my official last day at dexters until christmas break. I am happiest that Felipe and I can laugh again. maybe it is two faced on my point (remember, the server who called me stupid and i had to have a meeting with him and the owners because the two of us weren't getting along...aka worst experience ever) regardless, we now can joke around like we always used to. Saturday night I have to go in and say hi, because shawn and craigs band will be playing (gotta prepare myself for a possible julius run in) and its also amandas last night before she moves to california. Ugh, which is so dreadfully sad. She has been like my cool big sister. Hahaha I remember when Dan and Jeff would come in after their jazz band practice and she would flirt with them and they thought it was just the coolest thing in the world. The people I work with there saw me through pretty much everything this year. We had a countdown for my 18th birthday, took care of my new years eve when I wasnt allowed to go to Dans because of the storm, they were the day I came in crying after I got my Wake letter, they were there to bug me about acting like a slut during grease, and they successfully managed to ask about my relationship with every male who came into work to visit me.... Yesterday at O'boys, oh my lord. At around 12, a flower delivery man came up to me and said, hello, are you frances? These are being delivered to you. He hands me a bouquet with a stuffed duck. My first though.....holy crap one of the people con penis in my life decided to do the right thing and send flowers as a token of their new found, (or in some cases, refound) affection. SO, i read the card and it says TO: Frances the angel FROM: David this can't be happening to me. sure enough, i look up and there, on the other side of the restaurant, is david, cowering in a corner dripping in sweat, like this is the most nerve wracking thing he has ever done. I successfully, yet bitchily, managed to avoid him for the whole day, and everyone i worked with cooperated in making sure i was never alone at my stand. and i even conned the guys to act really flirty with my and forced them to find me attractive so david could get the wrong picture. And for the rest of the week Jesse insists someone walks me out to my car (in bright daylight, mind you) because he's scared David will be lurking in the bushes and capture me, lock me in a cage, and charge people admission to see his very own "certified angel" Last night, I embarked on a crazy adventure with Joel. His car broke down in Sanford, so I offered to pick him up and drive him home. to leesburg. the middle of nowhere. And apparently when a tow truck is following you, you have to drive really slowly because they cant go over 50. regardless of what road you are on. But it was good time with Joel...since I'm kinda leaving town and wont be getting much more of that. OH, but this gets funny, so I'm on my way home from Sleezburg, and if you havent driven on 46, ohhh my gosh. I was running low on gas, there were misquitos in the car that wouldnt fly out the window, I was completely confused as to where I was, and I was in hick land. no offense to anyone living off of 46, but i was seriously scared for my life. Not to be over dramatic or anything. Tonight was fabulous. I spent the evening with Julie Carina Mel and John. We drank wine, ate giovannis, and told story after story about our pathetic existances. Oh, and of course we watched queer eye for the straight guy. It's pretty cool....we havent all spent time together since the beginning of christmas break. But when you put the group back together it's like nothing has changed. We still act overdramatic, break into song (and dance) and laugh our asses off. Something tells me nothing will ever change our special little bond. Maybe it's because we took that 24 hour bus ride to Chicago.... Current music: "Where do the children play" cat stevens. http://www.richmond.edu/visit/virtual/i If you go to this website, click on laura robbins court, which is under the big lake. That will be my beautiful future home for the next year! I leave in 8 days.....and I'm starting to really, really look forward to it. :) Current music: "hey jude" beatles. What can I say, guys? I'm just gonna make the perfect addition to UR! USA's Most Sexually Active College Dorms Have you ever wondered what your kids are doing at college? Do you want to keep them from attending a university that gets by on sex? Cornell University has studied the nation's most sexaully active on-campus dorms for twenty years, and this is what they've found: 25 - University of Connecticut: New London Hall 24 - The University of Arizona: Babcock Inn 23 - California State University, Chico: Lassen Hall 22 - New York University: The Palladium 21 - Wesleyan University, Connecticut: Hewitt Hall 20 - University of Massachusetts, Amherst: Sylvan Area 19 - Georgetown University, District of Columbia: Darnall Hall 18 - Western Conn. State University, Connecticut: Pinney Hall 17 - Marist College, New York: Champagnat Hall 16 - University of California, Los Angeles: Hedrick Hall 15 - University of Connecticut: Terry Hall 14 - Stanford University, California: Corlon Place 13 - Western Conn. State University: Newbury Hall 12 - Wesley College, Delaware: Budd Hall 11 - Western New England College, Massachusetts: Hampden Hall 10 - University of Richmond, Virginia: North Court 9 - Providence College, Rhode Island: McDermott Hall 8 - Miami University of Ohio: Dodds Hall 7 - University of Connecticut: Goodyear Hall 6 - Long Island University, C.W. Post, New York: Blumney Hall 5 - Bentley College, Massachusetts: Castle Hall 4 - Connecticut College: Harkness Hall 3 - Arizona State University: South Desert Village 2 - The George Washington University, District of Columbia: Mabel Nelson Thurston Hall 1 - University of Rhode Island: Barlow Hall *Many of the USA's most sexually active dorms are in the Northeast, at typically wealthier and smarter universities, and mostly underclassmen dorms.  Grease! What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!) brought to you by Quizilla This is definitely the LAST result I expected to show up seeing as how everything about our grease was completely out of the realm of reality. did you guys SEE the nightgown I had to wear? good times, good times.... Current music: "the middle" (acoustic) by j.e.w.. Well as it turns out....they want me to work sunday bruch at dexters! i realized i really should be so upset about leaving there, because technically, I'm merely taking a break. I'll be back to visit over thanksgiving, working there over xmas, and then all next summer. So, I'm fine despite previous nervous breakdowns. I went through 9 hours of running around today, so I am kinda pooped. but i want everyone to download "konstantine" by s.c. and observe the goose bumps at eight minutes and twenty seconds. and then you bring me home and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no and you'll kiss me in your living room i know you'll miss me in your living room cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room we don't have much room i said does anybody need that room? because we all need a little more room to live. simply amazing. maybe only musicians can listen to stuff like that and freak out. It's like listening to rent or cabaret and getting chills. speaking of s.c. i have a poster with all of their autographs and the lead singers "happy birthday frances" over there on my wall..... eh. relationships just suck. I often feel as if I am becoming bipolar. The fact that I leave in eleven days will at one moment leave me sucking wind (as I was leaving work last night) or I can mentally bipass the fact that I'm leaving and be bouncing off the walls (as I was today at oboys, even after a mere 5 hours of sleep)I really just feel like sitting and writing, so if this passage becomes annoyingly long, find it in your dear little heart to forgive me. Psycho Dave update: the other day my mom and sister came into lunch at oboys. Even though i was rediculously busy as I always am during the oboys lunch rush, everything went fine, until david walked in. ehhhh crap. I warned mom and jules that the boy who thinks im a supernova in his universe has entered the building so dont be alarmed if a man in his late 20s glues himself to me. nothing too drastic happened until....mom and jules say goodbye to me and then leave the restaurant. somehow, david put two and two together and realized the striking similarities in the appearence of the three of us. not paying attention to david, i hear adam yell from across the restaurant, "frances davids out the door!!" shit. i fly out the front door to see david running after my mom and sister. i meet up with the three of them to hear david telling my mom about how "god blessed me with the gift of seeing her face so often" then i guess he realized what he was doing, froze midsentance, stared off into space, then ran back into oboys. so peculiar, i know. Cosmo dave update: well, he came strolling into dexters last night.my stomache did that curl thing...you know when you cant decide whether you have to throw up or find someone to give you mouth to mouth cause you cant seem to get your lungs to work. after he had a couple drinks, he came up to me and said "you know, i really hope you dont think im a sleezy person, i have just always had an attraction to you and i really didnt mean to cause any harm" i have the feeling someone told him he's the scum of the universe for hitting on (and confessing his thoughts about her when he's in the shower) a girl who is 24 years younger than he is. overall, my experience with him being in the restaurante last night was rediculously uncomfortable. One more funny story. who was taking it easy tonight in dexters? none other than the mother of the notorious bad boy, rory. it was entirely too humorous for words. she went off about how I was the best girlfriend he will ever have, and I am the "girl who got away" Also, she claims he is a bad boy, a bum, nothing more than a heap of trouble. aw. glad to know rory is doing what he does best.....i guess? On a more serious note, I feel like my brain is overstuffed. that probably doesnt make any sense. I'm just so emotional about leaving. One of the bar regulars, steve, told me today that I am an "unforgetable winter park trademark" i would go so far as to believe that, but I have realized how entirely comfortable I am in winter park. Every day I drive to work on palmer, old new england, webster, new york. i drive on those roads 4 times a day practically. i can go into express just to browse, and they all know my name. (ok, maybe i shouldnt be telling people that one) i drive to novie's house for voice lessons off of orange avenue. right down the road from orlando ballet, where i spent 6 long years dancing. i can go to trinity to watch a chorus line rehearsal and walk around there like it's my second home. just as always, i can park behind the art room and go through the wings, jump off the stage and take a seat. it's pretty hard to drive back there to see everyones cars and knowing im going as just an observer...especially when im next to carinas car and i see the fuzzy dice julie passed on to me which i then passed down to carina...at the grease steak and shake party....ehhhh emotional wait, heres another point. im going to miss my CAR. im so used to driving home from work or someones house and being alone in my cute little car playing my superb music. i'm going to miss those relaxing moments so very much. UR is gorgeous, and the surrounding area is so nice, strikingly similar to winter park, but still. where am i going to blare and sing "konstantine??" im sorry i complain so much guys. its just really hard, you know? maybe i just need to catch up on my sleep....probably....goodnight ya'll, i love ya so much Current music: "dont go away" by oasis.  Which "Saved By The Bell" Character Are You? come as a shock to anyone? OH MY GOOD FREAKIN HOLY SCHMOLY FUCKOLY...... You will never guess why I am home right now. WELL, I should be in american wedding with jessie dave, zac and ricky right now, but NO. frances forgot her drivers license/ any form of ID at home so I couldnt get in!!! I wasnt going to waste 7 bucks on seeing a movie i could get into without my friends, so I just came home, and I'll meet up with everyone in an hour or so. The ticket lady was so horrid! She said I didnt look 18 and wouldnt even call my mom or one of my freakin 5 bosses to confirm my age. What is the meaning of all of this?!? What ever did I do to conjure up such trecherous karma??? actually, dont answer that one.... Current music: "ironic" alanis morisette. |
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