A Delicate Few...

francescabella @ 2003-08-19T01:06:00

2003-08-19T05:06:51Z

I really just dont know what to say right now.
This is absolutely unreal.
I pretty much had the best day possible before leaving.

Breakfast with Julie downtown along with a nice walk in Orlando's glorious downtown little area. Then I spent time with Noah. Then i went to starbucks with dave and jessie to say goodbye to bronwyn. Annie Ibby and Joel then came over to say goodbye. Dinner with mom and julia. Then ricky dave jessie and megan came over. And then Carina and Julie. So i pretty much couldnt ask for a better final day in winter park.

And i did SO well with not crying infront of anyone. i remained numb (eh, had some emotional issues seeing joel off, but that doesnt count) and even when carina julie and i couldnt let go of each other in my driveway i STILL didnt cry. and i was positive jessie megan and dave would do me in, but still, no tears.
SO after everyone leaves I went upstairs to add some stuff to my many suitcases. I looked around and realized that no one else was coming to say goodbye. ohhhhh and then the crying started. I had to run downstairs to my mom cause it was pretty damn pathetic.

Julia just came in and threw me a paper rolled up and tied with twine. Oh god, I'm going to lose it. There is just no question about it. It's 1 and im waking up in 5 hours, but I just feel as if there are so many things I still need to do.....

As of tomorrow I'm entering this whole new world. I just want everyone who I'm leaving behind or watching go somewhere else to know, that I will love them just as much as I always have even when I am away. I owe you all the world for making me so incredibly happy and giving me such special memories.

Everyone, please leave me messages on my live journal, call my cell, email me, everything! i probably wont be updating for a few days.....

Just remember, I will always love you!

"Say goodnight not good-bye
You will never leave my heart behind
Like the path of a star
I'll be anywhere you are
In the spark that lies beneath the coals
In the secret place inside your soul
Keep my light in your eyes
Say goodnight not good-bye
Don't you fear when you dream
Waking up is never what it seems
Like a jewel buried deep
Like a promise meant to keep
You are everything you want to be
So just let your heart reach out to me
I'll be right by your side
Say goodnight not good-bye
You are everything you want to be
So just let your heart reach out to me
Keep my light in your eyes
Say goodnight not good-bye"

chantal kreviazuk

francescabella @ 2003-08-17T00:09:00

2003-08-17T05:10:14Z

57 hours....

For the past few days I have been to so many familiar, comforting places. I feel as if spending time with my friends right now is creating a sort of padding around me....so it shouldnt be too painful to jump into a completely foreign place that might have prickleys sticking out of the surface.

now, logically speaking....

Thursday, Julie and I watched a Chorus Line rehearsal. There was something very satisfying about watching my friends up there with the girl i admired for years when we both performed on Trinitys stage....while we were waiting for them to get done with their notes, jules and i walked around campus. It was strange...we were the only people there...and i have to admit there was a small lump in my throat when we walked by the benches. Carina then met up with us, and we rented a movie, and the three of us snuggled up on the hamulas couch while mrs. hamula cooked us our favorite honey chicken that we have been hooked on for three years.

Yesterday was my last day at O'boys....which wasn't too horribly difficult because I know I will be back in a few monthes and most everyone will still be there. Actually, I wasnt the only one who was going on break from there, so we ran around and took funny pictures and customers thought we were insane.

After work Denise and Lauren came over to say goodbye....it was just as wierd as I imagined to say goodbye, see you in three monthes. I love the two of them so much, and I know it's not like we will lose touch or anything. I just stop knowing what to think about all of this...

Last night Carina and I went to the best sushi place ever, Ichiban downtown. We vented pretty much the whole time, but we truly needed it. Then we suprised joel chase annie and ibby by driving down to chase's house even though we told them we werent going to.

Today, out of pure stress, I bought a new shirt and skirt from bloomies. woops?

Tonight was the first time I actually cried this week. The greenbergs had this amazing dinner party for us, and everything was splendid til i went up to jessie's room and saw a suitcase with sweatshirts and towels in it. And I absolutely felt something crumble inside of me. Then i went back downstairs and saw everyone and yeah i lost it again. I really am excited, I swear! I'm just scared about leaving what is so comfortable.

After Jessies I ran to Dexter's for the last time. It was Amandas last night and she sent me an email today implying she thought i was already up in Va. so i had to go and suprise her. I know you probably dont know who the hell I'm talking about but it was so nice to see laura ravi john and ryan one last time....and it was so bittersweet because criag and shawns band was playing and they sang an allman bros band song for me.....and yes, for those who have followed this story, Julius was there. And he was so sweet and I felt heinous as always.

Well, the time is almost here.... oh, and I'm packing way too much. I think I'm going to end up having 12 skirts with me.

Earliar today I was really bummed out. Not to sound rediculously dramatic, but I was upset because of the three boys who have claimed to have loved me at one point in the past few years, not one wants to see me before I leave. I guess my feelings are kinda hurt. But college is a blank page....My book of high school experiences has closed and my afterthoughts are the book's conclusion. So why should I let that bother me?

Goodnight and sweet dreams!

francescabella @ 2003-08-13T00:22:00

2003-08-13T04:24:55Z

"oh god its my mom calling, dont tell her I'm a whore"

Aw yes. At least my last few days at home are filled with entertaining,yet utterly random comments.

I have had a terribly eventful past few days.

Sunday was my official last day at dexters until christmas break. I am happiest that Felipe and I can laugh again. maybe it is two faced on my point (remember, the server who called me stupid and i had to have a meeting with him and the owners because the two of us weren't getting along...aka worst experience ever) regardless, we now can joke around like we always used to. Saturday night I have to go in and say hi, because shawn and craigs band will be playing (gotta prepare myself for a possible julius run in) and its also amandas last night before she moves to california. Ugh, which is so dreadfully sad. She has been like my cool big sister. Hahaha I remember when Dan and Jeff would come in after their jazz band practice and she would flirt with them and they thought it was just the coolest thing in the world.
The people I work with there saw me through pretty much everything this year. We had a countdown for my 18th birthday, took care of my new years eve when I wasnt allowed to go to Dans because of the storm, they were the day I came in crying after I got my Wake letter, they were there to bug me about acting like a slut during grease, and they successfully managed to ask about my relationship with every male who came into work to visit me....

Yesterday at O'boys, oh my lord. At around 12, a flower delivery man came up to me and said, hello, are you frances? These are being delivered to you. He hands me a bouquet with a stuffed duck. My first though.....holy crap one of the people con penis in my life decided to do the right thing and send flowers as a token of their new found, (or in some cases, refound) affection.
SO, i read the card and it says
TO: Frances the angel
FROM: David

this can't be happening to me.
sure enough, i look up and there, on the other side of the restaurant, is david, cowering in a corner dripping in sweat, like this is the most nerve wracking thing he has ever done. I successfully, yet bitchily, managed to avoid him for the whole day, and everyone i worked with cooperated in making sure i was never alone at my stand. and i even conned the guys to act really flirty with my and forced them to find me attractive so david could get the wrong picture. And for the rest of the week Jesse insists someone walks me out to my car (in bright daylight, mind you) because he's scared David will be lurking in the bushes and capture me, lock me in a cage, and charge people admission to see his very own "certified angel"

Last night, I embarked on a crazy adventure with Joel. His car broke down in Sanford, so I offered to pick him up and drive him home. to leesburg. the middle of nowhere. And apparently when a tow truck is following you, you have to drive really slowly because they cant go over 50. regardless of what road you are on. But it was good time with Joel...since I'm kinda leaving town and wont be getting much more of that.
OH, but this gets funny, so I'm on my way home from Sleezburg, and if you havent driven on 46, ohhh my gosh. I was running low on gas, there were misquitos in the car that wouldnt fly out the window, I was completely confused as to where I was, and I was in hick land. no offense to anyone living off of 46, but i was seriously scared for my life. Not to be over dramatic or anything.

Tonight was fabulous. I spent the evening with Julie Carina Mel and John. We drank wine, ate giovannis, and told story after story about our pathetic existances. Oh, and of course we watched queer eye for the straight guy.
It's pretty cool....we havent all spent time together since the beginning of christmas break. But when you put the group back together it's like nothing has changed. We still act overdramatic, break into song (and dance) and laugh our asses off. Something tells me nothing will ever change our special little bond. Maybe it's because we took that 24 hour bus ride to Chicago....

francescabella @ 2003-08-10T19:20:00

2003-08-10T23:32:08Z

http://www.richmond.edu/visit/virtual/index.htm

If you go to this website, click on laura robbins court, which is under the big lake. That will be my beautiful future home for the next year!
I leave in 8 days.....and I'm starting to really, really look forward to it. :)

francescabella @ 2003-08-09T22:07:00

2003-08-10T02:09:07Z

What can I say, guys? I'm just gonna make the perfect addition to UR!

USA's Most Sexually Active College Dorms
Have you ever wondered what your kids are doing at college? Do you want to keep them from attending a university that gets by on sex? Cornell University has studied the nation's most sexaully active on-campus dorms for twenty years, and this is what they've found:

25 - University of Connecticut: New London Hall

24 - The University of Arizona: Babcock Inn

23 - California State University, Chico: Lassen Hall

22 - New York University: The Palladium

21 - Wesleyan University, Connecticut: Hewitt Hall

20 - University of Massachusetts, Amherst: Sylvan Area

19 - Georgetown University, District of Columbia: Darnall Hall

18 - Western Conn. State University, Connecticut: Pinney Hall

17 - Marist College, New York: Champagnat Hall

16 - University of California, Los Angeles: Hedrick Hall

15 - University of Connecticut: Terry Hall

14 - Stanford University, California: Corlon Place

13 - Western Conn. State University: Newbury Hall

12 - Wesley College, Delaware: Budd Hall

11 - Western New England College, Massachusetts: Hampden Hall

10 - University of Richmond, Virginia: North Court

9 - Providence College, Rhode Island: McDermott Hall

8 - Miami University of Ohio: Dodds Hall

7 - University of Connecticut: Goodyear Hall

6 - Long Island University, C.W. Post, New York: Blumney Hall

5 - Bentley College, Massachusetts: Castle Hall

4 - Connecticut College: Harkness Hall

3 - Arizona State University: South Desert Village

2 - The George Washington University, District of Columbia: Mabel Nelson Thurston Hall

1 - University of Rhode Island: Barlow Hall

*Many of the USA's most sexually active dorms are in the Northeast, at typically wealthier and smarter universities, and mostly underclassmen dorms.

francescabella @ 2003-08-09T19:02:00

2003-08-09T23:08:37Z

Grease!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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This is definitely the LAST result I expected to show up seeing as how everything about our grease was completely out of the realm of reality.

did you guys SEE the nightgown I had to wear?

good times, good times....

francescabella @ 2003-08-08T23:21:00

2003-08-09T03:42:45Z

Well as it turns out....they want me to work sunday bruch at dexters! i realized i really should be so upset about leaving there, because technically, I'm merely taking a break. I'll be back to visit over thanksgiving, working there over xmas, and then all next summer. So, I'm fine despite previous nervous breakdowns.

I went through 9 hours of running around today, so I am kinda pooped.

but i want everyone to download "konstantine" by s.c. and observe the goose bumps at eight minutes and twenty seconds.

and then you bring me home
and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know
you'll miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room
we don't have much room
i said does anybody need that room?
because we all need a little more room
to live.

simply amazing. maybe only musicians can listen to stuff like that and freak out. It's like listening to rent or cabaret and getting chills.

speaking of s.c. i have a poster with all of their autographs and the lead singers "happy birthday frances" over there on my wall.....

eh.

relationships just suck.

francescabella @ 2003-08-07T21:53:00

2003-08-08T03:19:44Z

I often feel as if I am becoming bipolar.
The fact that I leave in eleven days will at one moment leave me sucking wind (as I was leaving work last night) or I can mentally bipass the fact that I'm leaving and be bouncing off the walls (as I was today at oboys, even after a mere 5 hours of sleep)I really just feel like sitting and writing, so if this passage becomes annoyingly long, find it in your dear little heart to forgive me.

Psycho Dave update:
the other day my mom and sister came into lunch at oboys. Even though i was rediculously busy as I always am during the oboys lunch rush, everything went fine, until david walked in. ehhhh crap. I warned mom and jules that the boy who thinks im a supernova in his universe has entered the building so dont be alarmed if a man in his late 20s glues himself to me. nothing too drastic happened until....mom and jules say goodbye to me and then leave the restaurant. somehow, david put two and two together and realized the striking similarities in the appearence of the three of us. not paying attention to david, i hear adam yell from across the restaurant, "frances davids out the door!!" shit. i fly out the front door to see david running after my mom and sister. i meet up with the three of them to hear david telling my mom about how "god blessed me with the gift of seeing her face so often" then i guess he realized what he was doing, froze midsentance, stared off into space, then ran back into oboys. so peculiar, i know.

Cosmo dave update:
well, he came strolling into dexters last night.my stomache did that curl thing...you know when you cant decide whether you have to throw up or find someone to give you mouth to mouth cause you cant seem to get your lungs to work. after he had a couple drinks, he came up to me and said "you know, i really hope you dont think im a sleezy person, i have just always had an attraction to you and i really didnt mean to cause any harm" i have the feeling someone told him he's the scum of the universe for hitting on (and confessing his thoughts about her when he's in the shower) a girl who is 24 years younger than he is. overall, my experience with him being in the restaurante last night was rediculously uncomfortable.

One more funny story. who was taking it easy tonight in dexters? none other than the mother of the notorious bad boy, rory. it was entirely too humorous for words. she went off about how I was the best girlfriend he will ever have, and I am the "girl who got away" Also, she claims he is a bad boy, a bum, nothing more than a heap of trouble. aw. glad to know rory is doing what he does best.....i guess?

On a more serious note, I feel like my brain is overstuffed. that probably doesnt make any sense. I'm just so emotional about leaving. One of the bar regulars, steve, told me today that I am an "unforgetable winter park trademark" i would go so far as to believe that, but I have realized how entirely comfortable I am in winter park. Every day I drive to work on palmer, old new england, webster, new york. i drive on those roads 4 times a day practically. i can go into express just to browse, and they all know my name. (ok, maybe i shouldnt be telling people that one) i drive to novie's house for voice lessons off of orange avenue. right down the road from orlando ballet, where i spent 6 long years dancing. i can go to trinity to watch a chorus line rehearsal and walk around there like it's my second home. just as always, i can park behind the art room and go through the wings, jump off the stage and take a seat. it's pretty hard to drive back there to see everyones cars and knowing im going as just an observer...especially when im next to carinas car and i see the fuzzy dice julie passed on to me which i then passed down to carina...at the grease steak and shake party....ehhhh emotional

wait, heres another point. im going to miss my CAR. im so used to driving home from work or someones house and being alone in my cute little car playing my superb music. i'm going to miss those relaxing moments so very much. UR is gorgeous, and the surrounding area is so nice, strikingly similar to winter park, but still. where am i going to blare and sing "konstantine??"

im sorry i complain so much guys. its just really hard, you know?

maybe i just need to catch up on my sleep....probably....goodnight ya'll, i love ya so much

francescabella @ 2003-08-05T19:50:00

2003-08-05T23:51:12Z

Which "Saved By The Bell" Character Are You?

come as a shock to anyone?

francescabella @ 2003-08-04T21:00:00

2003-08-05T01:16:21Z

OH MY GOOD FREAKIN HOLY SCHMOLY FUCKOLY......
You will never guess why I am home right now. WELL, I should be in american wedding with jessie dave, zac and ricky right now, but NO. frances forgot her drivers license/ any form of ID at home so I couldnt get in!!! I wasnt going to waste 7 bucks on seeing a movie i could get into without my friends, so I just came home, and I'll meet up with everyone in an hour or so. The ticket lady was so horrid! She said I didnt look 18 and wouldnt even call my mom or one of my freakin 5 bosses to confirm my age. What is the meaning of all of this?!? What ever did I do to conjure up such trecherous karma??? actually, dont answer that one....

francescabella @ 2003-08-03T22:40:00

2003-08-04T03:06:54Z

Crap, help!!
Ok, for those of you who followed the Julius drama.... holy flying pigs. As I think i mentioned, I have kinda been avoiding his calls, thinking he would get the hint and assume I found out ab his little party escapade, leading me to get freaked out, and realize he lost his chance. ok, WRONG. he came into dexter's today, and ugh i just felt waves of guilt. I have more than once been in the position of the girl who gets avoided and hurt, and now I'm the girl avoiding and causing the hurt. I got the impression he still really cares about me, and that was confirmed when he gave me a cd he made for me. i dont in any way have romantic feelings for him, but i feel discustingly bitchy. because (regardless of whatever's up with his sexuality) he truly is an innocent, sweet guy, who i think feels generally lost aside from his friends and music. oh my gosh you guys i'm so heinous. all i do is mope and cry about how boys toy with my emotions. and now im converting to the evil side....shit shit shit

oh yeah...a drunk guy last night gave me 10 bucks. we had a couple hundred people in the restaurant last night for this 80s band "the young americans"
now I'm hooked on 80's music. im also hooked on this cute little hat from abercrombie the 10 bucks helped me buy..ok, its going to SNOW my head needs to be kept warm, I have perfectly legit reasons to love the hat.

francescabella @ 2003-08-03T19:12:00

2003-08-03T23:12:43Z

I scored a 79% on the "How Winter Park are you?" Quizie! What about you?</b>

francescabella @ 2003-08-03T00:46:00

2003-08-03T04:57:15Z

I'm addicted to Dexter's sweet chips, O'boys chili, the precor eliptical, watching chorus line rehearsals, the real world, live journal, talking to julie, cookie dough, my new purse, and this song.....

I am walking
Out in the rain
And I am listening to the low moan
Of the dial tone again
And I am getting
Nowhere with you
And I can't let it go
And I can't get through...
The old woman behind the pink curtains
And the closed door
On the first floor
She's listening through the air shaft
To see how long our swan song can last
And both hands
Now use both hands
Oh, no don't close your eyes
I am writing
Graffitti on your body
I am drawing the story of
How hard we tried
I am watching your chest rise and fall
Like the tides of my life,
And the rest of it all
And your bones have been my bedframe
And your flesh has been my pillow
I am waiting for sleep
To offer up the deep
With both hands
In each other's shadows we grew less and less tall
And eventually our theories couldn't explain it all
And I'm recording our history now on the bedroom wall
And eventually the landlord will come
And paint over it all.

~Ani

francescabella @ 2003-08-02T01:14:00

2003-08-02T05:14:33Z

Everything seems to be coming to a very bittersweet stopping point. Actually, I am not going to consider it an end. It's like my life is a never ending cd and I am merely pressing the pause button on one track and at the same time starting a new song......right

Late last night Juan Jessie and Dave came over to bake cookies. Actually...jessie and I baked while dave and juan ate. Of course I was falling asleep, but it really hit me when we were standing in my driveway and I realized...this is it. We mentioned when our schools were starting and everything got kinda quiet. I always knew that this time would come, when I would finally realize I'm leaving frances world as it is at this moment. But now that the realization is here....I kinda just want it to go away.

Tonight for dinner I went to Dexter's with my mom. And it was so wierd...I was sitting there watching all my coworkers laugh and goof around, and it killed me to think that I am leaving that. What am i going to do if theres a friday night when I'm tired or dont feel like partying and theres nothing to do, and I will know that every friday night before this for the past 10 monthes I was at the most amazing job ever? Whenever anyone would come say hi to me and my mom I would tell them I was trying to get really really sick of dexters so three weeks from now when I'm gone I wont miss it. Fat chance.

After dinner I went to Sak comedy theater and then Kobe with the theater group. ok, I'm not even going to get started on how hard that is to say goodbye to. Joel and I were talking at dinner, and at one point I looked into his eyes and wanted to cry because I'm going to miss him so horribly next year. humph. tear.

It's times like these when I wonder what I possibly have to complain about. So what if things with noah turned to shit, or that i've completely seemd to lose touch with lauren, or i work so much but still dont have the money to buy the black coach purse or that extra skirt from abercrombie. I have so much to love in my life right now. and thats why this is so hard for me. I have this enormous suitcase in my room right now, and i wouldnt mind just letting it sit there and collect dust and never be put to use.

I should have done a summer session.

Hahahaha. I was just flipping through a drawer where i stash a bunch of random whatnots. I found this adorable picture of me denise and rebecca stein from our 6th grade trip to Washington DC. I remember Mrs. Cohen telling the girls we werent allowed to wear "glittah" on our faces.

Know whats not good at all? for the past three nights in a row i have had mad crazy binges. Wednesday was chicken strips and oreos at jons. Last night was cookie dough and cookies. tonight was kobe and....more cookies. This is discusting and needs to stop.

Ok one more serious thing.... Last weekend with julie, we drove uptown to morningside heights. When we were driving around the columbia neighborhood I lived in last summer, I couldnt stop myself from just breaking down and crying. So much has happened since Barnard, its rediculous. Everything from falling in and being forced out of love, three shows, two jobs not including habitat, and just so many social memories i never imagined would have happened this last year. I remember being at Barnard and telling my mom on the phone that I just had to rush through senior year, get it over with, stay away from all the obnoxious people, and get my ass to college. I remember walking on Broadway alone, convincing myself that i could be strong and get through the year even though i just wanted to stay in new york and never come back. One year later, back in new york, walking on broadway, and i wish i could go back 365 days and do it all over again.

francescabella @ 2003-07-29T23:26:00

2003-07-30T03:27:49Z

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
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what can i say?

francescabella @ 2003-07-29T22:14:00

2003-07-30T03:14:27Z

Tonight while I was at work, I happened to look outside and see a man in a wheelchair outside the door with only one arm. no legs and no other arm. and he looked retarded and homeless. I was worried that he would scare customers away because he seemed to be talking to himself, so I went outside to make sure everything was ok. keep in mind he made very funny faces when he talked.....and he constantly waved his one...appendage.
oh yes, he has two teeth...one on the top and one on the bottom....

Frances : hi sir, I am just making sure everything is ok with you tonight
Man: oh hello miss, yes, yes everythings juuus fine.....my, oh my, you are beautiful, so beautiful with those eyes, eh?..
Frances: oh...well...thanks, well I was just making sure -
Man (singing while waving one arm in the air) : you are so beautiful....to meeeeeee
Frances: aw, well thats very sweet of you....anyways-
Man: listen honey i need you to do me a favor, i need you to get me a little bit of money so i can get me something to eat
Frances: oh, well I'm sorry I dont have any money, I am at work so i can make some of my own
Man: oh yes yes, i understand. tonight is my birthday, fiiiiiiiiddy one little lady, look at me, i got only me one arm for that train did hit me, and im still livin and breathin and i fiddy one.
Frances (feeling a mixture of repulsion and sympathy) : oh well, thats great I am really proud of you, well, i was just checking to make sure everything is ok.
Man: oh yes yes, you have a good night....I love you ma'am, I love you and will never forget you.

I dont know whether to laugh this off or be utterly disturbed. Well, he still sat out there infront of the entrance for about five minutes, so i decided, what the hell. I took him a dollar and told him that as a birthday present, he should go buy a candy bar.

The End.

P.S. - Linds, I'm ending this entry now before I let my mouth get me into trouble!! I owe you and am keeping my fingers off the keyboard and pressing update right....NOW

francescabella @ 2003-07-28T21:09:00

2003-07-29T02:19:33Z

"on the bottom for girls is more easy, eh?"
it's amazing the conversations taxi drivers are willing to have on a saturday night with two tipsy girls. Dont ask why, but Julie and I decided to drink an entire bottle of wine at dinner in Little Italy the other night. on empty stomaches. Did you know the ground in Penn station can actually make waves like an ocean? well it does, i proved it.
In any case, right after dinner we had to take a taxi to penn s to pick up julies boyfriend and his best friend who, uh oh, is a senior at richmond. After that we went to a kareoke bar in alphabet city. i know you all are thinking i probably hit it up with spider man. (for those who are like what the hell, the richmond mascot is the spider. yes, a spider) but he said all of these things ab ur that really freaked me out, on top of the fact that i am already nervous ab going away. so me, being the powerless loser that i am, i threw back two cosmos.....i know i know, ok shut up. oh, for those who are wondering he said that the only thing to do on weekends is party and people are really cliquish. whatever.
a) the only thing to do at most colleges at the weekend is party, and im not complaining.
b) you will inevitably find yourself in a "clique" of friends. And I have always managed to have amazing friends. so i dunno why i let it bother me.
That was the craziest part of my weekend escapade.
You may assume I spent a paychecks worth on clothes. But I didnt! I saw all these things I liked but the thought of charging on my debit card just wasnt pleasing at all. maybe it's because im waiting to buy fall clothes for college and over-priced summer boutique sales just didnt do it for me. or maybe i am just cheap. MAYBE i need to start earning more than just hostess salary.
So i bought a groovy skirt no one else will be able to find (mwahaha) and a new purse. a little louis. woops.
julie is fabulous. her house in princeton is absolutely perfect. It looks like the pottery barn catalogue + urban outfitters.
so we stayed at this incredibly nice hotel (thanks to her dad) called Le Marquise. 31st and Madison i believe. So nice, in fact, that it had a sauna adjacent to the work out room. Before we went out Saturday night, Julie and I decided to hit that up. There was a window in the sauna door that looked out into rather small work out room. Well, there was a VERY fine gentleman using a stationary bike and lifting weights. So we watched him through the window because we knew he couldnt see in. (i swear i have a point) and we started saying stupid sexually oriented things towards him like...."hey cutie, we are burning up in here, come cool us down with your icy body" the door was solid wood so we just assumed he couldnt hear us. We must have looked really rediculous.
oh, we went to lucky chengs which is one of our favorite places in the city. It's this crazy little place way down between 1st and 2nd where all the
servers are drag queens and they sing and give people lap dances and its just the funniest thing in the world. ok, i officially was SO jealous of this one guy, er girl. SheHe was SO skinny and had this gorgeous face and it's not fair! i was born will all the organs i should be the one with the abercrombie body. grrr.
Work was rather interesting today.
Dill update: The future doctor dill does not cease to become more and more marriagable every day.
David update: (psycho dave not cosmo dave) Today david told me I embody "classic beauty" similar to how one feels after hearing a piece of classical music, my beauty does not fade and is as "splendid" as it was the first time you came across it. OHHHH and then on thursday he went up to a girl i work with, lisa, and told her that i have the most beautiful feet. i was wearing tennis shoes. and that's david.

so that's it for now. oh gosh, i am a monster. here is my response to annie when she tells me she met a catch. (a boy with all the goods)

Frances999: really?!?! go for him!
AFcutie156: haha he has a gf
Frances999: well flirt with him and make them break up!

Eh....I need to become a better influence.

oh, and by the way, who wants to give me a freakin 730 am wake up call so i can go to the dentist? i'm gonna get yelled at for not flossing. damnit.

oh yeah! i talked to my roomate she is so freakin sweet. It's such a relief! And I've been talking to a couple other girls online that are going to be freshman next year at richmond, and they, esp. this girl steph who i know we're gonna tear it up together, are awesome. so i'm slightly not as nervous. Having enough warm clothes. THAT makes me nervous. anyone want to permanently lend me their AF sweaters? anyone?

ps - for julie - if you ever get sad about that boy who you are ten times too good for, just remember our taxi cab confessions.

(by the way guys, talking to taxi drivers is really cool. they will listen to whatever you have to say....absolutely whatever)

francescabella @ 2003-07-24T21:36:00

2003-07-25T01:53:38Z

Well, I'm off for a weekend in my most favorite place, new york city!
So I'm sure I'll have a pretty crazy update for ya'll on Monday. Feel free to call my cell if you ever want to say hey this weekend!
Love you all,
Frances
my musical shout outs
1) ricky - beer song - reel big fish
2) Lindsey - Delicate Few - OAR
3) Jessie - king of new orleans - better than ezra
4) Annie - you're so vain - carly simon
5) Ibbs - Blinded - Third eye blind (you'll get it haha)
6) Jon derek - she said - collective soul
7) zac - pacific coast highway - travoltas (haha you used to love them)
8) denise - love song for no one - john mayer
9) petey - circles - soul coughing
10) everyone - both hands - ani defranco

francescabella @ 2003-07-23T22:16:00

2003-07-24T03:03:21Z

So....last night I ate this huge piece of tiramisu at around 1130. Dont ask why, but I did. So i was wired. At around 1 I was thinking to myself...crap what the hell am I gonna study at Richmond. For a while now I have been contemplating going into law. So, i asked the boys what they thought when they pictured me as a lawyer.
I asked....(the guys that were online at the time)
Zac Callier
Brian Gold
Jon Squires
Justin Marshall
Rob Williams

Here are their answeres, but its all scrambled.....try to guess who said what!

1) i'm not sure ..... i dono how analytical you are....i think that might be the most random question you've ever asked me

2) if you were willing to grab a guy by the balls, threaten to rip them off if he didnt testify, and then did anyways even if he testified...yes, i hope u can lie a whole fucking lot ....and very very well ....and have no concionse(however u spell it, pronounced con-shense)

3) not even close....baaaad liar....(no offense)

4) Monkeys flock to the apple pie on the third thursday of the blue moon's sister in law....aka you're too nice to be a lawyer

5) i think you probably owuld, yes frances... cept that u cane be a bit too quiet

ok, and here is my story for the day.
So, i'm reading my new book, "backpack" tonight up at my stand. and a clown walked in. Yes, a clown. like painted face, goofy outfit (although slightly normal clothes, nothing vibrant or poofy) and what looked like a painted grey and white mop over his face. He was a rather classy winter park clown. so he wanted to order a take out, and while he was waiting we had a nice little chat. i mean, why not spice up life a little and flirt with a clown? because i think under the mop and the face paint he's cute... big blue eyes and sandy blonde hair. naturally i asked him what the HELL he was doing dressed as a clown. i guess his two buddies were playing upstairs at ballard (the bar across the street) and they were like, hey we dare you to dress as a clown at our gig. so...i guess he did. but you guys he was SO nice! he was like, hey come have a beer with us after you get off. i really wanted to....but then i was like, shit wonder if (picking random person) zac asked me what i did tonight and my response would be....oh nothing, had some drinks with a clown. yeah RIGHT. of course when he leaves all the regulars and people i work with are like, frances, look at you, gettin it on with a clown, you go girl. ugh. and then john said....hey frances, maybe he has a boat, too. so yeah,

on a different note....lately i've been talking to my future richmond dorm/classmates. haha its actually a blast. everyone should try to find their school's forum and do the same.

im tired....i actually worked out this morning, which increased my endorphin level. damn im a nerd.

francescabella @ 2003-07-22T21:45:00

2003-07-23T03:15:46Z

Ok, guys, time to fill you in on yet another one of my deranged, freakish admirers.
There is this guy, David (NOT cosmo david), who is kinda notorious around winter park. He is 28ish, and he was in a car accident which led to brain damage...so he's definitely a little off. He definitely annoys everyone he runs into, but I have always felt kinda badly for him. Well, he's been coming into Dexter's for Sunday brunch for a pretty long time. He has always said just WIERD stuff to me.
1) Frances, you just radiate positive "golden" energy
2) Frances, you have gorgeous legs. (ok, THAT one was a little sketchy)
3) Frances, you are the supernova in my universe.

don't get any ideas, now...
rumor has it that he was thrown out of briar patch for....handling himself (while that which he handled was out of where it belonged...ahem, his pants) under the table while talking to the waitress.
well, lately he has been going into O'boys a lot. He always sits at the bar, but he does this wierd thing where he will start to walk up to me, but then he puts up his hands and turns around and goes back. oooook. haha it was actually pretety amusing the day that ashley was working the bar, he goes and sits down and announces, look, look, frances is working today, too. Yeah, she didnt think that was funny.
yesterday he was talking to me, and he was telling me about how he was clubbing downtown Saturday night. He asked what I did and I told him that I had a lot of fun at Dexter's because the House Cats were playing and it was like a big party. ( I always feel obligated to talk to him like he's a little kid, cause thats how he acts) david asked, "oh, oh, did you wear a dress???" ummmm no david i wore pants. "denim pants??"
this kid is so entertaining. It's sad, though because at Dexter's a couple of weeks ago, he said "dont believe a word they say about me across the street, they are all a bunch of malicious lies" i didnt know whether to laugh or congratulate him for using the word malicious. And most often when I talk to him he randomly says, I'm not a freak like everyone thinks I am. aw. poor david. so....I did something stupid. I gave him my email adress. but JUST because I knew his emails would be hilarious and he probably doesnt have any other people to write to. I received this last night...

Frances:

Hey, you did not say a good-bye today; I am a little
disappointed, not so much; although, it would have
been nice for you to do so. Maybe, you are working
too hard? I do not know. This does not change the
fact I thank God for letting me see a bit of
heaven--speak to you.
Have a nice day,
The Un-dork,
Davie
Watch and smile :-)

so freakin wierd you guys.

Oh, and apparently Jon isn't working at Dexter's anymore. Which is good cause he's so damn annoying. (right jon? i know you are reading this you nosy biotch)
Tonight was the montly wine dinner at Dexter's. I had to wear a dress and actually stay up at my stand. Ravi and Laura would sneak me snacks (the usual, sweet chips and cold veggie cuts) but it still sucked. And all of these wealthy people came in with their designer purses. sigh. sometimes I really wish I was the one attending the fancy meals with the credit card instead of standing there and smiling while the hoity toities walk on by. i guess thats for after i manage to climb the occupational ladder.

Oh my gosh and in three days I will be seeing Julie in New York. I need this break so badly, but more than anything I need to spend time with Jules....as crazy as it sounds, I find my sanity through her. I really owe a lot to Julie. First of all, she forced me to start making eye contact by always saying "frances, what are you looking at, now??" Second, not only do I steal all of her fashion choices, but I steal her clothes, too. Third, she got me into the habbit of always making sure to brush my tongue when i brush my teeth. Fourth, I'm not the only one who can say they are horridly embaressed by who they had a crush on during the music trip three years ago. These two boys will remain anonymous forever, so have a lot of fun guessing. because you never will. although, seeing how its julie, you mnight know who she liked....julie, if you are reading this, i love ya so much

OH, everyone, jessie got her wisdom teeth taken out so email her and say you love her.
Dave is still in ireland....he better be getting really drunk.
sweet!! petey is coming home aug 3rd. Damn I miss that kid.
Does anyone else who was in Grease wish that just for one night, we could do the show again? that was the most amazing time ever.

a wop baba loo bop.....or whatever the hell we said

francescabella @ 2003-07-21T14:44:00

2003-07-21T18:52:38Z

Well guys, I finally stepped out of the stone age and hooked up my voice mail! yay!
So you MUST call my cell and leave me a message....and if you are lucky i'll figure out how to check it!
And why didnt the mail bring me my roomate information????
Ohhhhh jeepers. This is Jon's away message.
"so i come home from california to find out from my sister that dexter's has decided my services are "no longer needed". i wonder if they were planning on waiting for me to show up to work one morning and then tell me after i set everything up that i'm not working there anymore...what dicks."
what am I going to do without having him to annoy the crap out of on his shifts?

francescabella @ 2003-07-20T21:08:00

2003-07-21T01:29:16Z

XCapulet: hah, you could make your money programming. Lord knows you know how to make a link... kind of.
XCapulet: (that was funny. Justin & I tried to dork-anize you.)

francescabella @ 2003-07-19T15:36:00

2003-07-19T19:37:23Z

I vow to never bake again. I just finished making brownies for work tonight. I feel so gross, not only did I down all the excess batter, but as I was just cutting away the slightly crispy edges away from the pan I managed to eat all of that, too. gross.
I just cleaned out my closet. I dont know how I forgot about it, but I came across the poster the girls made for me for my sweet 16. A jumbo collaboration of Abercrombie models and dreamy actors. That definitely made its way out into my room!
So to Bronwyn, Geneva, Denise, Sarah, Lauren and anyone else who worked on that, it's still lookin damn good!
And i KNOW im not the only girl that has done this. But as I was flipping through my party dresses, it dawned on me that I should go ahead and play dress up to see which ones I could wear in college if I have parties to go to (assuming I will make at least 2 friends)
I saw my homecoming court dress from junior year and thought oooooo this one is sleek and sexy!
ok what HAPPENED in the past year and 8 monthes???
a) I have shrunk. I couldnt walk because it was so long. And I definitely dont remember that being a problem.
b) ok, i defintely had the ability to breath when I wore it back then. Where did that go??
I also realized that I never took the price tag out of my prom dress from last year. hm. typical. Dont you guys notice how I ALWAYS manage to forget price tags?
Oh and this one takes the cake. Triiiiied putting on my 10th grade prom dress. It was an honest effort, I swear.

francescabella @ 2003-07-18T23:43:00

2003-07-19T04:36:30Z

Well I must be a loser cause I got home from work a little while ago, and no one is online. And I just ate an entire bag of Kettle corn. Aren't I a lady?
When its crazy busy at Dexters, I, being the lucky hostess, have to put up with a hefty load of pretentious, stubborn, Winter Park snobby idiots. I know its a wild night when a guy buys me a shot....you see, the people that live in the apartments above Dexters are all pretty much regulars at the bar. One of them happens to be a young business man (ooo la la) At one point during the evening he asked how I was doing, seeing how there were 20 people hovering around my stand. I told him I was about ready to take a wine bottle and crash it over my head. A little while later I ran past him at the bar, and he pulled me over to say, hey franny this is for you. A shot of something absolut. And the story ends there.

And here come's the sentimental side of Frances. (to avoid your eyes rolling into the back of your head, i suggest that if you are a boy you just stop reading)
Seriously, do you believe in fate?
I know all you who read this have been rediculously enamored with someone at one point in their life. And of course, that person was/is untouchable. And all your friends told you, "if it's meant to happen, that person will love you one day as much as you love him/her." Thus defining fate. I'm aware that this is all pretty corny, but am I the only hopeless romantic out there who still believes that? Hopefully, if all goes according to plan, we are all going to get married within the next decade or so. Do you ever wonder about what the person you are going to marry is doing at this very second? Or where he lives, if he has a girlfriend (i'm assuming the boys have stopped reading by now) or if you already know him? For some reason this is weighing really heavy on my mind. wierd, huh?

I am so glad I will be in New York next weekend. I must focus on solely shopping for clothes, decorations, etc, that are purely college appropriate. The best part is knowing I am going to have Julie-Frances time. It's been quite a transition having my best friend be up north all year...but I feel as if we have a more adult relationship because of the distance. Well I guess anything seems adult-like when you compare it to our previous friendship rites of sneaking out of her house and talking constantly during vocal society. woops. I'm sure no matter how old we get we will always lay in bed together and talk all night long about love and sex and all that other juicy stuff. hahahaha i remember in 9th grade we were talking about penises late at night when jazz band/vocal society went to new york city. Well, actually Julie was doing most of the talking. THe best friends you could possibly have are those you can talk about the most rediculous, stupid things you have ever done or dreamed about and just laugh your asses off at each other. And no matter how stupid the other person acts, you love them to tears anyways.

Ugh I always get so corney at night. And I'm exhausted from working so much today, so I KNOW nothing has made sense. Those of you with LJs though will agree that writing in it has a very calming effect haha. well, I should go to bed, and since I have tomorrow afternoon off I can sleep in! FINALLY...haven't done that in 7 days.
Goodnight...

francescabella @ 2003-07-18T15:35:00

2003-07-18T20:00:21Z

Ok guys, it's story time!

There is a certain family, the Dills, who come into O'boys more than once a week. Mr. Dill, Mrs. Dill, and their two sons who are Rollins boys. Now the older son will be going to med school in Richmond in the fall. And he's a very good catch, let me tell you. He comes from a very wealthy family, he's obviously smart since he is going to med school, and he's very handsome. Hes not like, "daaaamn that boys hot" but hes definitely "daaaaamn, that boy is highly attractive" Know what I mean? I sat with the family for a while today and talked about Richmond and blah blah blah. (i had spoken to Mr. Dill before about my attending UR in the fall) So i told my mom today at lunch (Moe's mexican joint, ohhhhh so good, you walk in there and just feel like forgetting your calorie count and want to splurge) oh yeah, so i told her about this Dill boy and she FLIPPED. She's thinking about the wedding, and all I can think about is hellll yeah this boy will know where all the cool clubs are. (his apartment is in downtown richmond) I'm thinking about how he wears lacoste and has a soft southern accent and she's telling i need to make myself look really nice for work next week.
Then, it dawns on us.
"And if you have a son, you can name him after your father and his name would be....Delos Dill"

Delos Dill.

Good lord.